Feb 13, 2008

No. 126

I've realised..
  • That stupid questions don't have answers. You just have to retaliate with another question -"WTF??"
  • That my PQT teacher is too boring to exist. An extract from a conversation.
Me : She's just too boring to exist..
Hari:Her children will become geniuses.
Me:(Arched eyebrows)
Hari: She's so boring that they'll find everything else so interesting that they'll grasp stuff better.
Me:Not if they die out in the first two three years.
  • That when I say I'm bored I'm looking at only my side of the argument. I should rephrase it to "We're bored".
  • That politics is omnipresent and omni"suck"-ent
  • That I can bend metal. I just bent a chair by sitting on it. I have a strong feelin git was already bent and weak from the last pounding. I was a scapegoat.
  • That first impressions are not the best impressions. They are the ones you refuse to go against. So it is not my fault if you're a stubborn dunderhead.
  • That food shared tastes good. When not shared it tastes good for a longer time. Hey I'm mortal.
  • That Colleges are just schools with a fancy name. I had to write a letter for being absent half a day. And a friend got chucked out for talking.
  • That mindless arguments make you feel good only if the people you argue with make you feel good.
  • That there will be a perpetual pain in my ass. Sources may vary.
  • That this may be boring to you. But hey I did not ask you to read this did I?
  • That this is the first post I've numbered. Thank No.18 for that.
Now shoo...

Feb 6, 2008

Demons..

Fate sucks. It shows up at the worst possible time with the worst possible news which will affect the last person you ever want to hurt. It'll leave you no way out and when you do somehow make a way for yourself it will lead to yet another catacomb of supposed exits which lead you into deeper and darker territory till you eventually give up and let go.

Happiness and sorrow are two sides of the coin they say. It really sucks when one side of it is biased so that you get it all the time and when you do get the other side it hits you hard. And when nobody undersatnd it is the cherry on the cake isn't it? A very very nasty cake with a rotten cherry, yea....

When you trust someone, you know they'll be there for you. You have faith in them that they'll stick around. I wish I had been around. I wish I had atleast been a cause of what had happened. It feels like shit to be at the receiving end for something you never did and don't even know how it happened and wouldn't ever wish for it happen. Makes me wish it was me who had done it. Atleast I'll know what I'm feeling bad for.

Will I ever break free?

Feb 4, 2008

Rain drops keep falling on my heaaaaad...

Bringing in the quizmaster- Rs 35000
Entry fee per team- Rs 30
Stage setup(read lanjam)- Rs 1000+
The result- One priceless kick-ass quiz

For me, the thrill lies not in knowing the answer but when my guesses end up being right. I thought I would miss all the fun when I was entrusted the responsibility of 'Event co-ordinator' but trust me, I was as wrong as the one who said the earth is flat. What's better was I got my own private quiz backstage before it all started! Gopal Kidao rocks. Seriously.

"Kid" as his friends call him, is a very simple man. I went to pick him up at the railway station and was surprised to see a simple man with an unassuming smile walking up to me. Kid(if I may call him that) finds pleasure in small things. Right before his entry on the stage he requested us to play a soundtrack as a cue. Kid is an amazing quizmaster. You'll be almost done with giving the right answer and you'll never find out from his face whether you are on the right track. Kid has a very friendly air about himself. Kid is patient. Kid rocks.

From the quizmaster to the teams. Ah, the teams. Waat lavuly teams. Mindblowing answers which made me swear into the microphone (which thankfully was switched off). Answers which make you look up in awe because you never thought one could possibly know that answer. Ejjitement all around. Funny moments galore. A picture perfect "Thomas mason affair" hunched up beside the screen looking closer for hidden clues. Rival school teams( from S.B.O.A. Rock on da's and di's) going at each other just for the fun of it. Rival PSG teams going at each other as well. Teams 1 and 5 stole the show. Quizzing as it should be done.

The audience. Whatever questions you throw at them they have an answer waiting. Myriad people of various ages, gasping, sighing, cheering, whippee-ing at all the right times. Whatya sight to begold....

The scorers. Couldn't have gotten three better people. Nithya,vasuki and ranjith, were awesome company. The volunteers. Couldn't have done it without them.

Nutty and varun. I wish they weren't in fourth year.

Mouli anna. All in all alaguraja!

Quiz over. Late night drive to city tower. And food after 14 hours. Food had never tasted better. Pangs of guilt when I thought about niveditha's broken laptop screen. I wish I'd been around.

Intercollegiate quiz next day. Funny time at the prelims. Paired up with shiva for the first time. Wracked our brains for the craziest guesses possible, got 4 on 25 and still had the biggest grins as though we had aced through 'em. Boring prelims but mindblowing finals!

The missing key caper followed. A very tired and irritated-by-his-poor-memory nutty lying sprawled on the stage in the Ac hall. A very tired me, varun and hari accompanied him. Carefree hour. Comic relief on finding put what happened.

Root(kriya) had achieved what Kriya on the whole had failed to. Success beyond measure. The turnout was amazing. The questions, better. The answers we got- the best. My class guys rock!

Enter Jimmy wales. Excellent choice of words is all that I can say. Later that evening we were invited to a dinner with Jimmy Wales a the residency. I could appreciate the goodness of the man who at there answerng our questions as though nothing else was his priority. To quote a few of his words..

Question : Was wikipedia just an effort to spread knowledge to others, a sign of your altruism?"
Answer: (not the exact words but almost) I'm zero percent altruistic. I like having fun and I like being challenged intellectually.

Question: If Steve jobs came to you and offered 50 Million for wikipedia would you sell it?
Answer. Oh gosh no. If I were selling it, I would start the bid at 1 billion! Moreover I don't think Steve has that much money! (lol)

Question:What were your thoughts when you saw an article about you on Wikipedia?
Answer: In the first few months when wikipedia was founded there wasn't an article about me. People started asking questions and frankly any encyclopedia without an article about its founder is useless! (Casual and smooth!)

And when a video was screened from a system running windows and it so conveniently crashed "This is why I use linux. The transition from windows to linux is too slow in my opinion."

Excellent three days. Made me realise how much I loved eating and how much more I missed doing that. I traded a cozy sleep in my room for a night at a friend's place where we all had to stay awake the whole night thanks to the mosquitoes who were rather too upbeat that night. Night out on the terrace gazing up at the stars. Life hain to aisi??

Nice long talks with Hari and Erin. There was a point when i thought I would not have time for blissful talks, sitting on chairs in all the ways they are not meant to be sit on. I'm glad I was wrong.

P.s : I love rain.

Jan 29, 2008

Like a flowing river??

One of those days when I feel like I wanna melt cheese in the swiss alps with a st.bernard eagerly awaiting the end result. I want out. Things spiralling out of control. Why? Not because I'm sick and tired. But because everything I wanna do shows up in front of me at the same time like a beaming kid with an open sac, wearing a dracula costume yelling "Trick or treat!!!". Times when sanity is tested. At times like this if you don't become insane for even a little while then you're a lune alright!

I've always wondered why things are what they are. Please don't read on if you expect profound philosophy. But if you're satisfied by mindless analysis done by 19 yr olds who make up stuff and call it profound philosophy, then be my guest. What would happen if what we knew and what we didn't know got interchanged? Chaos?? no. Because all people in this world don't know the same things. Our roles would merely get interchanged. (No wisecracks about people not knowing how to stand, eat , see, etc...)

Imagine a situation wherein you are asked to do something for the dumbest person ever, and he/she gets the credit for it. You would love to pound the crap out of her/him, but you can't and you have to look on as he/she ascend to new levels of crappiness. What would you do when you're forced to face that face day after day week after week? You'd break wouldn't you? Atleast for a while?? If your answer is no then you need help. Period.

The only solace is in knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Till then I'm trying to be comfortably numb. Crap-proof. I bounce crap right off. Now that would be a helluva invention. Crap-proof attire for the 19 yr old. I should preach someday. Seriously.

Row row row your boat...
Gently down the stream.
Bam poof kablow bang,
Tseeeew kapwing gleem.

Thank you for your patience. My period of temporary insanity is over. Elliptical curve cryptography here I come!

Kapwing!

Jan 21, 2008

I'm back...

I’ve realised enough is enough. I ‘ve finally made sometime to do one of the things I love doing. Pity that I’ve time for other stuff but I ‘ve to make some to do what I love.

The past 2 weeks have been different for me. Stuff that was in my life for most of the time for the last year suddenly left me for the last week. No tantalizing wait for the s11a at 7 50 AM when a question pops into your head- “Has it left already??”. No three bus transit after the more often than not departure of the same without me. No “Excuse me ma’am”s on the few days I arrive at 8:32 AM but forced to accept it is 8:37 because the teacher’s watch says so. No sheepish grins. No knowing glances. No searching for a seat except the first three rows. No relief when the bell rings. No lunch time group discussions about what-not. No RV visits. No long-busride home. No music after getting home. No internet. No coimbatore….

Bro came home after one and a half years. We spent time at Chennai at grandma’s for the pongal holidays before his departure on 19th. He’s still the same, just a few adjustments- lesser hair and a few kilos lighter. I woke up late. Paati’s food for a change. Ate to my fill feeling guilty all along about the 5 kilos I’d gained. Nevertheless ate the same if not more. Went to spencers with mom and bro. Mom’s first visit there. Losing track of time had never been this fun. The four of us in an auto on a ride home. Stuff happens just to kindle your memory doesn’t it? A visit to a friend-from-old apartment-and-family-album’s place to find their kids all grown up but them being the same. Chit-chat. Dinner. Photo albums. Laughed at how stupid we looked in pants which looked like shorts because we wore them chest high. Made promises about suing my parents after I earned enough to get a lawyer, for not changing my hairstyle back then ( Trust me, You’d have done the same). Bye bye’s. Taxi ride to airport. Bye-byes. Hugs. Looking back. Ride back home at midnight. Staying awake to hear the flight has been delayed by two hours. Train journey back to coimbatore. Back to the life as of now.

I look back at this travel through time. Could it be that all these have been right here with me without me realizing it? Be what may, life rocks.

I feel some kind of change. I feel like I’ve been put through the borsalini test. I have a feeling I might have passed. J Blood flows through my fingers as I sit before this screen after three weeks and I realize how good it feels. Music runs in the back and I sing along. I break free along with avril and Zeppelin.

I feel good. Goooooooood! (Seen bruce almighty??)

Dec 26, 2007

Back in time...

Thanks to swat, I had this great time revisiting a few of my most favorite songs. Truly music to me is what a lollipop is to a 3 yr old kid. This song "brighter than sunshine" by aqualung made me write this post I can say. Love the song, the voice, and moreover the movie (A lot like love).






I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

I got a feeling in my soul ...(repeat chorus to end)


:)

Dec 21, 2007

The other side of me..(yes I am multi faceted alright)

Apparently there is more to me than meets the eye. Or so it turned out to be....

December 20, 2007. It was a cold rainy night and I wasn't dumb enough to be out and contract something. I logged into gtalk for a little chat before going to sleep. I had an invite to chat from some fellow who called himself krish93. I thought it was a krishna I knew (Common name, you see..) and accepted it because unknown person's don't use gtalk but just bug you in orkut. What followed was, what can I say...why don't you just read on

me: u jus added me...which krish are u?
10:29 PM krish93: krishna
from cbe
10:30 PM me: Anna university?
krish93: sengunthar college t.gode
me: tp s friend?
krish93: no
10:31 PM me: then?
krish93: just i saw u in orkut
me: do i know u?
10:32 PM krish93: krishna from coimbatore (Does "do i know you" mean anythi g different anymore????)
10:33 PM me: umm u can be a little more specific
krish93: i am new friend for u
me: ohhk..(with some eyerolling)
10:34 PM krish93: wht u doing
10:35 PM me: nothin much
bored
krish93: ok shall we chat
10:37 PM r u there
10:38 PM me: yea
ok we can.(everyone should be given a chance right??..NO... WRONG)
krish93: wht u doing real life
10:39 PM me: college
2nd yr
PSG
computer science
krish93: oh good
i am psg product diploma
10:40 PM me: oh k
krish93: where did u done ur school
me: sboa
krish93: oh 5n
10:41 PM r u got management seat r free seat
me: free
10:42 PM krish93: r u in home
me: aama.(Change in language -->sign of frustration creeping in..)
10:43 PM krish93: wht else r u in hoilday
10:44 PM me: (An alien which can shower green goo from its nose or a piece of shoe lace) no
college da
tomorrow leave
krish93: ok
10:45 PM shall we meet one day if possible
me: if possible yea.(Tried being subtle)
why did u add me?? what mad eu? (I failed)
10:46 PM krish93: y
wht happen
me: i dont like talking to strangers i dont know and don't feel like I want to know ..
10:48 PM krish93: oh y u think me as ur strangers ,we wil be friend (My strangers?? FTLOG!)
me: huh (Brain on the walls people..)
10:50 PM krish93: thn wht else
me: gonna sleep in a while..(tried a more obvious-er version of subtlety)
krish93: ok
10:51 PM shall u call me
r else i wil
me: i dont really know u
I don't think it's time we tlak..
10:52 PM krish93: ok
after understanding we wil talk ok
me: FINE (Cyanide or rat poison??)
krish93: rajkumar is the dct hod of psg tech dimploma (Where the hell did that come from?)
10:53 PM r u in J block
r EB block
me: A
10:54 PM krish93: ok
whts ur name in orkut to search
10:55 PM me: the same, DUH(I wanted to say obi wan kenobe but then I'd be in deep shit making him understand that)
10:56 PM krish93: shall i add u
but it show male.(THERE YOU GO!)
r u male
me: OMG
oh k, so that's what this is all about.
10:57 PM get a life man(The most patient I've been in a single incident in my entire life..)
krish93: omg means
me: Oh my god (See what I mean by Patience)
buzz off ( It's starting to wear off)
u made a mistake i see(Stating the obvious eh??)
I am not a girl
so tata(that meant ^%#^%#^%^)
krish93: ok
10:58 PM me: and u wont be getting anywhere with the way u approach "Girls"(air quote)
krish93: wht
wht u mean

And the genius went offline. Voila!! The lame dufus actually thought I was a girl. I thank him for that. Phew.. for a second I was scared that he was a "little-too-happy" if you know what I mean.

I guess I should rephrase the first sentence. There is more to me than met his eye. An extra fookin' 'N' at the end. It is SHARANYAN. Is it my fault that "sharanya" is a sexy name??

Bing's not so weird now is it chandler??

Dec 19, 2007

Tra la la!

Yes I am singing. For this has been a beautiful day. Why, you ask? Because I bunked college thanks to the heavy rain!

* I found out that I could solve the easy sudoku in under two minutes. (I'm not kidding)

* Spent time on orkut looking at random profiles and communities and smiling to myself when I saw something I liked (Yes I should get a job, I know)

* Watched two movies.

i) Hot fuzz - English movie whose script coulda been a copy of a tamil one's, absurd story, but funny movie.

ii) The butterfly effect - Loved the story, though it is as probable as me changing my blog template to pink. Super acting.

* Found out two things warm you from the inside except the time when people say they love you - "FRIENDS tenth season last episode" and "a cup of coffee + Chilli Gobi with onion rings with a touch a lemon" after a walk in the cold piss-drizzle of an evening rain.

* Caught up with my friends. That's always good.

* The daily nonsense chat with shrey (Hey, we do talk sense time to time) about the lead guitarist of megadeth and the story of how he slept with his head on his hand and his hand became numb and he could not play the guitar for a month. It ended with me giving him nightmares of what would happen if his butt becomes numb. He said it does when he reads in the posture for a long time. ;)

* New template. Yea you'd have noticed.

* Unusually happy day as a whole though not every art of it was pleasant.

Tomorrow's coming along with a cattle prod. Or is it a candy bar?

Dec 4, 2007

Audioslave

A tribute to one of the best voices I've heard, one which makes me sing along even though I don't know the lyrics, and to the music, just puts me in a trance. To Chris Cornell..



Out Of Exile

Yesterday to Tomor...


Yesterday to tomorrow

Yesterday to Tomor...


Be yourself

Audioslave - Be Yo...


Revelations

Revelations.mp3


Wide awake

10 - Audioslave - ...


Like a stone

Like a stone.mp3